Movin' on up.

Well I have been meaning to post this for a while but I have moved blogs. My new address is:

http://www.xanga.com/A_Preface_to_Transgression

take care,

Daniel

In the new house and the new life-style.

So I am in my new house with one full week under my belt and I like this.
I live in a house with 6 other people and I love it. There are moments when one can be bythemselves in a house that is as crazy as this one and that can be good and that can be bad.
I am always doing something:cleaning, tidying, working on Marx/GRE/Gradschool stuff. One thing after another. I went shopping today with $50 and I squeezed so much shit out of that little amount of money it was crazy! I loved it. I walked out with a ton of healthy food and some new self-respect unlike any I had ever had: I was taking care of myself with my own money and driving my car back to my house. This may cause some to roll their eyes and either a) they have never done it or b) they merely forget how it used to be for them when they tried it. It is a kind of satisfaction that could surmount many things in my life (barring getting elected president or the incredible stunt I pulled off in LR about 7 weeks ago-I am still pretty satisfied with that one).
A few other things: Dogs are great. I am taking care of this little mutt thing right now and I love it. I take it for walks and talk to it. I miss dogs. My dog is for sure coming to visit this weekend.
I miss somethings in LR. And I think about them all of the time. All of the visits could not possibly equal being there all of the time. But we will see how that works out.
Talked to my Mentor/Advisor Dr. Schmidt and I am finally ready to try for grad school. Academe..............bring it mother fucker!

Here and there in my head but at home on my feet.

Random thoughts on this day.............

1. My mom got a new job in the neurosurgery clinic. I think she likes it. I hope so, she works to hard.

2.I like spam. I had a fried ham sandwich for lunch and while that might sound disgusting, I promise that it is quite tasty!

3.Feelings are somehthing that we cannot control, especially the feelings of those around us, so why try. We can just be ourselves and hope that it is enought to get our point across. This is the same for me. My feelings are mine and mine alone. And not me or anyone else is in control of those fucked up things. They just are.

4.Blogs are a funnny thing. Where else can you read something that anyone with a computer can read and find a refrence or two to yourself. And this thought is wierd because the medium of blogs can be self-referential. Crazy!

5. I like my dogs. They are the best dogs on the face of the planet. (Despite! How lazy they are.)

Feeling a little lost today.

I am still home for the summer and I am feeling a little lost. I am moving out this weekend and that should be a new begining, but, alas. Still so much old baggage still in transit.
Well there is still the necter of the gods to get us through these days!

The state of the world.............

Well I suppose that it is time for me to examine the world. I have been leary to really think about the world I live in but NPR assails me with bad news.
So here is my assesment:
1.CAFTA-Bad idea. Lets keep jobs in America where we can assure ourselves (to some degree) that there will be safe working conditions and equitable pay.
2.The agreement to sell nuclear fuel and technology to India. I take issue with this for a few reasons. The United States is attempting to form allies who have boarders or are in close proximity to China, real politik and the balance of power for those that can harken back to the day's of Mr Brown. Selling nuclear technology (even if it is just civilian technology) is a blow to stabilizing this region. I realize the importance of nuclear technology (to a certain extent) to any nation, but it should not be the foundation for an alliance. My reasoning is that it sends the wrong message to the world, that nuclear technology is the medium of negotiations (in either directions). I feel that India must not only agree to international standards concerning the use of nuclear technology but that it must ratify the NPT. I also feel that the sale of this technology could have been a strong bargaining chip to use to encourage India to disarm what nuclear arsenal it is has. But we blew that and still India/Pakistan/China contentiously pointing missles/bombs at each other. Oh well. What do I know about foreign policy. Detente is better than peace right?
3. John Roberts. Ok, a stroke of brilliance by the Bush administration I must admit. An intellectual (summa cum laude from Harvard, editor of Harvard law review, clerked for the Chief Justice), seemingly unpolitical-a civil servent through and through, a limited record to examine. Kudos to you W.. But I am not completly convinced. His previous jobs have had him towing lines are being neutral and as an appelate judge it is his job to enforce the constitution. But! What if he is freed from political restraints? What kind of man will we be dealing with then.
I remain on my guard with this guy, I am worried. Things which seem to good to be true almost always are.
4. The new Harry Potter book is out and I have read it. My reaction are shock and sadness in case anyone was asking, which I doubt you were.
5. London. Who ever did this today, not funny.

So it has been a while and a lot has happened.............

.....and it has been a general trend in the lives around me that there is in fact a light at the end of the tunnel. Things are apparently looking up for most people and to a certain extent for me. I am the happiest I have been in years right now (and for a lot of reasons), but I still feel the shadow over my shoulder.
These few years have been hard, ones wrought from experiences which for many people (and myself in a way) have not been the best. I look back to where I was a year ago and I am lost about the time that has elapsed in between here and there. A lot of it is clouded over (either by drink or repression). A lot of it is just plain gone.
The state of the world outside of my safe world with my tiny problems has on the other hand not brightened. I am not sure where this convergence of my feelings about my life and those around me with my feelings about the world at large, dark and horrible.
I feel a tad lost. Not like I felt over the last year. This is new, different and in a few ways more unsettling.
But we will see.

Random thoughts on a spring day.

"Even a teen-age crack dealer can tell you that there is no way to cut revenues and triple expenditures without getting into the kind of problems that croaked Billy Sol Estes and the Franklin National Bank, along with the utterly bankrupt governments of Brazil, Argentina and Haiti." -The Late and Great Dr. Hunter S. Thompson


These are days of directed Anarchy on the political scene.
First the national scene. Look at the Teri Schaivo case. I am not going to get into the ethical implications of the situation but the religous fanatacism that has this nation in the throws of some epiliptic seizure have finally seen to a degradation of the constitution beyond the usual flaying of the first amendment within an inch of its life. Republicans have finally lost sight of their own party. The idea of the seperation of powers and states rights have been razed to the ground in the name of scoring cheap political points. When the congress went into session for the sole purpose of forcing the judicial branch to hear the Schiavo case all I can think of is the invasion of poland. Except this time it was not Nazis but white guys in suites waving the bible in one hand, a bottle of scoth in the other, bleeding from the nose and driving into the peaceful judiciary with the intent of enslaving them! The situation on the hill in Washington has reached critical mass.
Furthermore, look at the state of the economy. The dollar is down and I don't mean taken a dip that son of a bitch is down like Kennedy outside of Martha's Vineyard. It is not complelty unplausable that the U.S. will default on all of its loans forcing a global collapse of the market system the likes of which have nevere been seen. So if I were you I would start buying gold or euros because the dollar will eventually only be useful for wiping your ass or letting Ashley Simpson sign an autograph on it.
The president is also attempting to get CAFTA pushed through congress. CAFTA or Central American Free Trade Agreement or way to screw more poor people in both the U.S. and Central America. Free trade is not free. Its effects are evil in so many ways I get sick thinking about them so I will say no more.

Now to my own home of Arkansas:
The used to be fat governor is orchestrating his bid for the presidency in 2008. Only a god can save us now folks. If you keep up with Arkansas politics then look for a lot more photo ops about the governors health! Unless you are a school child in this state in which case the governor could give a flip about your health. No more P.E.! Huckabee also refuses to remove soda and candy machines from public schools because his buddies in the vending industry who are also major contributors by the way would not feel keen on supporting old used to be fat ass if he cut of there ability to screw little kids out of good health and a couple of bucks. Welcome to the world of the free market.
Next, someone should launch the Arkansas Capitol into space with the legislature locked inside. Those crazy bastards have lost it. Well they may have never had it to begin with. Along with letting our schools continue fail in favor of giving kick backs to their buddies they have also reached a new form of religous fanaticism the likes of which have not been seen since the second crusade. A statement from the house reaffirming the legislatures belief in the seperation of church and state has failed. School prayer (as long as it is student led) was institutionalized.


Amuck. Amuck. Amuck.